breaking the veil

synopsis.md

@@ -46,30 +46,151 @@ communities where she and @k frequent. @a's petty secret is that in rl she is a
 man named John. John created @a out of wishful thinking but does not see
 themselves as trans because of their self-contempt.
 
-The stkes are so much higher because Yyanu wants to fall in love with Kj's player as a 
-girl. But as we see above, John is unwilling to come out.
-Yyanu's username is Jezibel or Anabel or something.
+The stkes are so much higher because Yyanu wants to fall in love with Kj's
+player as a girl. But as we see above, John is unwilling to come out.  Yyanu's
+username is Jezibel or Anabel or something.
 
-@k keeps teasing, flirting with and tormenting @a and often accuses her of 
-catfishing and of course that is exactly what John feels is true and @k is 
-constantly demanding proofs and reality checks as their relationship hungry for 
-more confirmation hungry for more ... threatening to hack her or dox ro something 
-and yy/@an/john know that giving in and trying to pursue this relationship is
-unhealthy but cannot tear themselves away.
+@k keeps teasing, flirting with and tormenting @a and often accuses her of
+catfishing and of course that is exactly what John feels is true and @k is
+constantly demanding proofs and reality checks as their relationship hungry for
+more confirmation hungry for more ... threatening to hack her or dox ro
+something and yy/@an/john know that giving in and trying to pursue this
+relationship is unhealthy but cannot tear themselves away.
 
-{Digression: what if maybe there is another character, not @k, maybe Ed a friend
-of @k who acts as both the protector/cockblocker/inquisitor}
+{Digression: what if maybe there is another character, not @k, maybe Ed a
+friend of @k who acts as both the protector/cockblocker/inquisitor}
 
 {Or as soon as @a and @k begin to socialize and interact in online communities
- ed showed up and insinuates themselves into the scene. Quickly their pro-active
- actions and @k's complacence makes it clear that @a will have to prove themselves
- and 'go through' Ed to get to @k. @a MUST win Ed's trust to have any future with
- @k. }
+ed showed up and insinuates themselves into the scene. Quickly their pro-active
+actions and @k's complacence makes it clear that @a will have to prove
+themselves and 'go through' Ed to get to @k. @a MUST win Ed's trust to have any
+future with @k. }
 
- {The secret to be revealed is that Ed always was Katja in game, and in all the
- ways that matter John/Anibl is in love with "Ed as Katja"}
+{The secret to be revealed is that Ed always was Katja in game, and in all the
+ways that matter John/Anibl is in love with "Ed as Katja"}
 
- At a major turning point John tries to go all in on the deception/catfish front
- by working with a friend/cousin/online aly to create a fake femme profile. 
+At a major turning point John tries to go all in on the deception/catfish front
+by working with a friend/cousin/online aly to create a fake femme profile. This
+plays out until it falls apart disastrously; Ed discovers @a/j's ruse but
+instead of exposing it offers some understanding and compassion but gives John
+24 hours to come clean to @k. John is afraid she'll never forgive but Ed says
+try and see.  She might surprise you.  If she takes you back I'll support your
+relationship, but if you chicken out and don't come clean to her I'll certainly
+tell her I don't think you're worth her time. 
 
+## Confession
+So John/Anibl confesses to @k and reveals himself in a video call or something
+something. In return @k confesses that she is behind Ed's profile as well and
+implies that he's a made up character her like Anible/Yyanu. But she doesn't
+quite say so, she merely lets John/Anibl believe it and stays quiet, not
+correcting their assumptions.
 
+If anything @k encourages the idea that she invented Ed in order to both get to
+live a trans-male fantasy sometimes and or to enjoy her own pocket "white knight"
+a la *Good Woman of Szechuan* perhaps.  The thing John wants to believe is that @k invented Ed as an alter-ego for 
+the same reasons he invented Anibl. 
+
+One tell-tale hint about @k is that on video she looks exactly like her CXE
+character. I mean exactly. And not in a way one would think. Not in a way that
+implies that Caligual XE has awesome graphics but more in a way that makes it
+seems like there is something odd about @k, like she threatens to glitch in a
+certain way.
+
+After the mutual confessions, John/Anibl feels free to give in completely to 
+this romance and is soon even more completely overwhelmed with feelings. They
+feel that if @k was comfortable in a trans-fantasy role play that they kind of
+complement or compensate for eachother. But through it all, @k keeps Ed's social
+profile active and is more likely to communicate with @a as Ed in 'rl' than as @k
+and prefers to interact in Caligula XE as Katja with Yyanu. Although they 
+communicate ooc very often now.
+
+Note: in Yyanu's POV ooc talk simply doesn't happen, or is not experienced. However
+as a writer I can account for it in character as blanks in memory, strange suddden
+alterations in world view or knowledge. Much like has been written in the amnesia
+chapter. 
+In Anibl's or John's pov. The OOC scenes can be portrayed however will IC 
+Caligula game play have a place? I don't know. 
+
+## In person.
+
+eventually move the story towards an in-person meeting. Complicate matters. 
+
+I like working through the story to the point where John travels in real space
+to meet Katja in real life. He thinks they will fall in love in a cis-het way
+with a little cross-dressing fetish on the side that they can both enjoy. Maybe
+even carry on playing games. Hard to say what he's thinking. I would however
+like to give Anibl a voice here. Possibly have, at one point, as John move
+closer to solidifying a straight mainstream reln with Katja, that as an outlet
+for part of them that rebels against this betrayal, begins to carry one a
+cyber-affair as Anibl ... or some kind of electronic g-holes for quick
+meaningless cyber. I'd like to see Anibl play a straight femme in some of these
+cyber scenes. 
+
+That diversion could go far... but how far? I'm not sure. Here's a plot idea.
+John thinks that he's cheating on Katja as Anibl online... not sure why. Feels
+guilty, can't quite stop it, feels super guilty. 
+
+Maybe this happens after only one visit. And Katja has not revealed Ed yet. So
+the cis-het romance in John's head has a foundation but is largely unsupported
+bu by real life, like he's completely delusional. But the guilt is real.
+Katja/Ed acts so much more trusting, and doesn't pursue the problem but
+none-the-less is so much more net savy and aware that John can't help but get
+caught. Katja starts pushing for a heavy  heart to heart & face to face. John
+panics and starts avoiding, sabotaging, and almost succeeds in destroying the
+relationship. But...  like one delusion is the idea that his cishet fantasy is
+what Katja is expecting when its not and he thinks he now has to lie to her to
+hide the fact that he can't really assume the role he thinks she expects. 
+
+[...]
+
+## Dawn of the age of Sorcery
+It eventually all comes to a head. In a break up a fight, or something even
+more traumatic Katja forces John to come and meed "Ed".  Even this terrifies
+John.  And Katja talks John down, leads him to a secret room where they find a
+man sleeping . It's Ed. Katya kisses him to wake him up and in doing so
+transfers Ed's soul from Katja back to Ed. After just the right ammount of
+messed up hijinks John finally learns that Ed uses Katja's body to live life as
+her sometimes. That he is a sorcerer and Katja is a demon, summoned from the
+Hell-server version of Caligula XE. 
+
+Ed/Katja does not want to live a cishet straight life with John. In fact thats
+not even possible because Katja doesn't really even legally exist. There may be
+other severe restraints built into the magic as well. To be discussed with 
+adept sorceres as needed. But what Katja/Ed does want is to be able to consumate
+their love for John/Yyanu as Katja and Yyanu in real life as they did in Caligula XE.
+This means John needs to learn enough lore to be able to summon Yyanu from hell Server
+and learn to swap/hop bodies.
+
+John wants this desperately, and fully resolves his John/Anibl split by
+embracing his pink pill fantasy and with little forethought or consideration
+dives into sorcery. But also neglects to pay attention to the whole package of
+lore, in terms of what one ought to know to operate safely. Ed/Katja try half heartedly to 
+teach some basic sorcery hygeine but their heart is not entirely in it. Katja,
+as a demon of course has no concerns about the price or the downside of sorcery.
+Ed is fixated on his own quest... to escape into another world altogether.
+
+So as an anticlimax John sucessfully summons Yyanu, hops into her body, and makes love with Katja.
+She thinks they're going to be so happy. This would be a good place to stop.
+
+## But we wont stop there.  
+Katja/Ed wants to conduct a finaly irreversible
+ritual, sacrificing one's humanity to become a permanent denizen of hell
+server. If Yyanu agrees to join her they can live forever perhaps in
+Hell/Caligula. But this is literal suicide. Because Ed would have to leave his
+human body behind as a corpse. So that would create complications. 
+
+I don't want to come across as judging Ed/Katja. I first only want to work out
+the logistics. I think if Ed dies, Katja(d) is banished or goes into need or
+some other problem. 
+
+If John/Anibl is left behind what happens next? I think a future book deals
+with the aftermath decades later. What if John puts Anibl and Yyanu back into
+the closet but tries to keep a second life alive through judicious use of
+Sorcery? What if John marries and has kids in a cishet life but its all a lie?
+What about Ed and Katja?  Can Yyanu visit hellserver through contact?
+
+What would the final chapter be?
+
+Do I want to pull away another curtain an reveal that John and Ed and Katja and
+Yyanu are all just characters made up in a ttrpg sorcerer campaign? Then who
+are the real players and what do they want?