From 72ef0233e8c018b597e196ef061fcf8f16a8af1e Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: j3zibl Date: Thu, 27 May 2021 23:14:57 -0300 Subject: [PATCH] breaking the veil --- synopsis.md | 159 +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++------- 1 file changed, 140 insertions(+), 19 deletions(-) diff --git a/synopsis.md b/synopsis.md index 77de7db..ebb26d7 100644 --- a/synopsis.md +++ b/synopsis.md @@ -46,30 +46,151 @@ communities where she and @k frequent. @a's petty secret is that in rl she is a man named John. John created @a out of wishful thinking but does not see themselves as trans because of their self-contempt. -The stkes are so much higher because Yyanu wants to fall in love with Kj's player as a -girl. But as we see above, John is unwilling to come out. -Yyanu's username is Jezibel or Anabel or something. +The stkes are so much higher because Yyanu wants to fall in love with Kj's +player as a girl. But as we see above, John is unwilling to come out. Yyanu's +username is Jezibel or Anabel or something. -@k keeps teasing, flirting with and tormenting @a and often accuses her of -catfishing and of course that is exactly what John feels is true and @k is -constantly demanding proofs and reality checks as their relationship hungry for -more confirmation hungry for more ... threatening to hack her or dox ro something -and yy/@an/john know that giving in and trying to pursue this relationship is -unhealthy but cannot tear themselves away. +@k keeps teasing, flirting with and tormenting @a and often accuses her of +catfishing and of course that is exactly what John feels is true and @k is +constantly demanding proofs and reality checks as their relationship hungry for +more confirmation hungry for more ... threatening to hack her or dox ro +something and yy/@an/john know that giving in and trying to pursue this +relationship is unhealthy but cannot tear themselves away. -{Digression: what if maybe there is another character, not @k, maybe Ed a friend -of @k who acts as both the protector/cockblocker/inquisitor} +{Digression: what if maybe there is another character, not @k, maybe Ed a +friend of @k who acts as both the protector/cockblocker/inquisitor} {Or as soon as @a and @k begin to socialize and interact in online communities - ed showed up and insinuates themselves into the scene. Quickly their pro-active - actions and @k's complacence makes it clear that @a will have to prove themselves - and 'go through' Ed to get to @k. @a MUST win Ed's trust to have any future with - @k. } +ed showed up and insinuates themselves into the scene. Quickly their pro-active +actions and @k's complacence makes it clear that @a will have to prove +themselves and 'go through' Ed to get to @k. @a MUST win Ed's trust to have any +future with @k. } - {The secret to be revealed is that Ed always was Katja in game, and in all the - ways that matter John/Anibl is in love with "Ed as Katja"} +{The secret to be revealed is that Ed always was Katja in game, and in all the +ways that matter John/Anibl is in love with "Ed as Katja"} - At a major turning point John tries to go all in on the deception/catfish front - by working with a friend/cousin/online aly to create a fake femme profile. +At a major turning point John tries to go all in on the deception/catfish front +by working with a friend/cousin/online aly to create a fake femme profile. This +plays out until it falls apart disastrously; Ed discovers @a/j's ruse but +instead of exposing it offers some understanding and compassion but gives John +24 hours to come clean to @k. John is afraid she'll never forgive but Ed says +try and see. She might surprise you. If she takes you back I'll support your +relationship, but if you chicken out and don't come clean to her I'll certainly +tell her I don't think you're worth her time. +## Confession +So John/Anibl confesses to @k and reveals himself in a video call or something +something. In return @k confesses that she is behind Ed's profile as well and +implies that he's a made up character her like Anible/Yyanu. But she doesn't +quite say so, she merely lets John/Anibl believe it and stays quiet, not +correcting their assumptions. +If anything @k encourages the idea that she invented Ed in order to both get to +live a trans-male fantasy sometimes and or to enjoy her own pocket "white knight" +a la *Good Woman of Szechuan* perhaps. The thing John wants to believe is that @k invented Ed as an alter-ego for +the same reasons he invented Anibl. + +One tell-tale hint about @k is that on video she looks exactly like her CXE +character. I mean exactly. And not in a way one would think. Not in a way that +implies that Caligual XE has awesome graphics but more in a way that makes it +seems like there is something odd about @k, like she threatens to glitch in a +certain way. + +After the mutual confessions, John/Anibl feels free to give in completely to +this romance and is soon even more completely overwhelmed with feelings. They +feel that if @k was comfortable in a trans-fantasy role play that they kind of +complement or compensate for eachother. But through it all, @k keeps Ed's social +profile active and is more likely to communicate with @a as Ed in 'rl' than as @k +and prefers to interact in Caligula XE as Katja with Yyanu. Although they +communicate ooc very often now. + +Note: in Yyanu's POV ooc talk simply doesn't happen, or is not experienced. However +as a writer I can account for it in character as blanks in memory, strange suddden +alterations in world view or knowledge. Much like has been written in the amnesia +chapter. +In Anibl's or John's pov. The OOC scenes can be portrayed however will IC +Caligula game play have a place? I don't know. + +## In person. + +eventually move the story towards an in-person meeting. Complicate matters. + +I like working through the story to the point where John travels in real space +to meet Katja in real life. He thinks they will fall in love in a cis-het way +with a little cross-dressing fetish on the side that they can both enjoy. Maybe +even carry on playing games. Hard to say what he's thinking. I would however +like to give Anibl a voice here. Possibly have, at one point, as John move +closer to solidifying a straight mainstream reln with Katja, that as an outlet +for part of them that rebels against this betrayal, begins to carry one a +cyber-affair as Anibl ... or some kind of electronic g-holes for quick +meaningless cyber. I'd like to see Anibl play a straight femme in some of these +cyber scenes. + +That diversion could go far... but how far? I'm not sure. Here's a plot idea. +John thinks that he's cheating on Katja as Anibl online... not sure why. Feels +guilty, can't quite stop it, feels super guilty. + +Maybe this happens after only one visit. And Katja has not revealed Ed yet. So +the cis-het romance in John's head has a foundation but is largely unsupported +bu by real life, like he's completely delusional. But the guilt is real. +Katja/Ed acts so much more trusting, and doesn't pursue the problem but +none-the-less is so much more net savy and aware that John can't help but get +caught. Katja starts pushing for a heavy heart to heart & face to face. John +panics and starts avoiding, sabotaging, and almost succeeds in destroying the +relationship. But... like one delusion is the idea that his cishet fantasy is +what Katja is expecting when its not and he thinks he now has to lie to her to +hide the fact that he can't really assume the role he thinks she expects. + +[...] + +## Dawn of the age of Sorcery +It eventually all comes to a head. In a break up a fight, or something even +more traumatic Katja forces John to come and meed "Ed". Even this terrifies +John. And Katja talks John down, leads him to a secret room where they find a +man sleeping . It's Ed. Katya kisses him to wake him up and in doing so +transfers Ed's soul from Katja back to Ed. After just the right ammount of +messed up hijinks John finally learns that Ed uses Katja's body to live life as +her sometimes. That he is a sorcerer and Katja is a demon, summoned from the +Hell-server version of Caligula XE. + +Ed/Katja does not want to live a cishet straight life with John. In fact thats +not even possible because Katja doesn't really even legally exist. There may be +other severe restraints built into the magic as well. To be discussed with +adept sorceres as needed. But what Katja/Ed does want is to be able to consumate +their love for John/Yyanu as Katja and Yyanu in real life as they did in Caligula XE. +This means John needs to learn enough lore to be able to summon Yyanu from hell Server +and learn to swap/hop bodies. + +John wants this desperately, and fully resolves his John/Anibl split by +embracing his pink pill fantasy and with little forethought or consideration +dives into sorcery. But also neglects to pay attention to the whole package of +lore, in terms of what one ought to know to operate safely. Ed/Katja try half heartedly to +teach some basic sorcery hygeine but their heart is not entirely in it. Katja, +as a demon of course has no concerns about the price or the downside of sorcery. +Ed is fixated on his own quest... to escape into another world altogether. + +So as an anticlimax John sucessfully summons Yyanu, hops into her body, and makes love with Katja. +She thinks they're going to be so happy. This would be a good place to stop. + +## But we wont stop there. +Katja/Ed wants to conduct a finaly irreversible +ritual, sacrificing one's humanity to become a permanent denizen of hell +server. If Yyanu agrees to join her they can live forever perhaps in +Hell/Caligula. But this is literal suicide. Because Ed would have to leave his +human body behind as a corpse. So that would create complications. + +I don't want to come across as judging Ed/Katja. I first only want to work out +the logistics. I think if Ed dies, Katja(d) is banished or goes into need or +some other problem. + +If John/Anibl is left behind what happens next? I think a future book deals +with the aftermath decades later. What if John puts Anibl and Yyanu back into +the closet but tries to keep a second life alive through judicious use of +Sorcery? What if John marries and has kids in a cishet life but its all a lie? +What about Ed and Katja? Can Yyanu visit hellserver through contact? + +What would the final chapter be? + +Do I want to pull away another curtain an reveal that John and Ed and Katja and +Yyanu are all just characters made up in a ttrpg sorcerer campaign? Then who +are the real players and what do they want?