taking poor edward to hell

PEID.otl

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 		: What else is involved in learning sorcery? One learns to extract
 		: power from sacrifices, to adhere to the demonic laws. Then finally
 		: one learns the rituals and the routines. 
+	Indulging in Sorcery
+		: So major action in the middle of the plot will be constructing the
+		: alternate life I craved, the transformation, etc. So the roughest
+		: premise is to summon a demon whose body I can either possess or swap
+		: or 'ride along' with. The demon is a passing demon in the shape of a
+		: human woman. Getting to live out a life in her body however entails
+		: immense logistical challenges. Fundamentally it is about the toxic
+		: wish-fulfilling desire to have my cake and eat her too. There is no
+		: "coming out". Merely a hell's spells enhanced cross-dressing fetish
+		: which I allow to destroy my life. The story captures my layers of
+		: self-contempt... but it is not meant to invalidate real people. but
+		: it will if I'm not careful and don't think this through carefully.
+		: Hmmm. 
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+		: Anyways the logistical challenges of living life part-time in a body
+		: which should not exist, which has no legal identity, but has demonic
+		: needs will probably require resorting to additional sorcery to
+		: sustain. With additional sorcery, and it's requisite loss in
+		: humanity... the problems will mount. 
+		Real trans
+			: What would my relationship be like to the trans community? I can
+			: see so many problems. Interesting problems. Like infiltration
+			: and impostor problems. Yum. But writing in these problems is
+			: probably necessary to make it clear that the self-indictment is
+			: not meant to target the real trans community. And to avoid
+			: splash damage. 
+			:
+			: an easy trope might be the attempt to tempt an trans person
+			: become an initiate in a way similar to how I was drawn in. But
+			: the 'real' person rejects my deep inherent inauthenticity making
+			: a statement about ... I don't know yet.
+	Taking Poor Edward to Hell
+		: As an aside, not necessarily useful to the story. What about the
+		: dying. Becoming a kind of parasite on the back of my demon's head?
+		Coming out and validating the lie.
+			faking my own death
+				: absurdly cruel and inhuman
+			faking GRS
+				: extremely tricky
+			banishing the demon
+				: also tricky redemption path
+				beginning a true path to transition
+		Settling down.
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