From 47b830778c07ea357b3c14c640c2b8429784d733 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: j3zibl Date: Tue, 23 Mar 2021 23:42:53 -0300 Subject: [PATCH] taking poor edward to hell --- PEID.otl | 50 +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++------- 1 file changed, 43 insertions(+), 7 deletions(-) diff --git a/PEID.otl b/PEID.otl index 4914bf0..42c2f79 100644 --- a/PEID.otl +++ b/PEID.otl @@ -129,13 +129,49 @@ Chapter Ideas : What else is involved in learning sorcery? One learns to extract : power from sacrifices, to adhere to the demonic laws. Then finally : one learns the rituals and the routines. + Indulging in Sorcery + : So major action in the middle of the plot will be constructing the + : alternate life I craved, the transformation, etc. So the roughest + : premise is to summon a demon whose body I can either possess or swap + : or 'ride along' with. The demon is a passing demon in the shape of a + : human woman. Getting to live out a life in her body however entails + : immense logistical challenges. Fundamentally it is about the toxic + : wish-fulfilling desire to have my cake and eat her too. There is no + : "coming out". Merely a hell's spells enhanced cross-dressing fetish + : which I allow to destroy my life. The story captures my layers of + : self-contempt... but it is not meant to invalidate real people. but + : it will if I'm not careful and don't think this through carefully. + : Hmmm. : + : Anyways the logistical challenges of living life part-time in a body + : which should not exist, which has no legal identity, but has demonic + : needs will probably require resorting to additional sorcery to + : sustain. With additional sorcery, and it's requisite loss in + : humanity... the problems will mount. + Real trans + : What would my relationship be like to the trans community? I can + : see so many problems. Interesting problems. Like infiltration + : and impostor problems. Yum. But writing in these problems is + : probably necessary to make it clear that the self-indictment is + : not meant to target the real trans community. And to avoid + : splash damage. + : + : an easy trope might be the attempt to tempt an trans person + : become an initiate in a way similar to how I was drawn in. But + : the 'real' person rejects my deep inherent inauthenticity making + : a statement about ... I don't know yet. + Taking Poor Edward to Hell + : As an aside, not necessarily useful to the story. What about the + : dying. Becoming a kind of parasite on the back of my demon's head? + Coming out and validating the lie. + faking my own death + : absurdly cruel and inhuman + faking GRS + : extremely tricky + banishing the demon + : also tricky redemption path + beginning a true path to transition + Settling down. + - - - - - - -